The night before Round 3
June 22nd, 2010
I spent today trying hard not to think about tomorrow and my third round of double-dose chemo. Staying in the moment takes a lot of practice.
It will be my first trip to Stanford looking like the rest of the veterans in the infusion lab: bald.
Mostly I’m looking forward to seeing Dr. Carlson, who was at an oncology conference during my last visit. He will have a chance to examine my tumors, and we’ll see if he agrees with Katie the PA that they are smaller. I am hopeful.
I spend lots of time rubbing my head, intrigued by the smoothness of it. It won’t grow back until long after chemo has ended.
Chemo kills fast-growing cells, and cancer is a fast-growing cell. So is hair. So if my hair cells are dead, that means the cancer is dying too.
Bald is beautiful.
T,
I’m visualizing those pac men taking that tumor down. You can do it. Think about those olive trees!!!
J
Hi Tracie
Wishing you the very best results at Stanford.
I was struck by your comment about being in your head and that being a place you do not want to be. David Milch, the TV producer, director, writer, said, ‘when I’m in my head I’m in a very bad neighborhood.’
John
Hi Tracie and Michelle,
I am visualizing the shrinking of your tumors and replacing them with healthy , vital cells. I am praying that your Doc. will give you good news.
I hope the treatment goes without a hitch.
My heart goes out to you both!
Carol
Bald is beautiful, baby!! We are headed back to Italy in September for another house hunting trip – so, in a few years when we are settled and you are well (that means cancer free and freedom for you)you are coming to visit. I posted pictures in my FB album – check it out. Michelle is invited, of course